fall into places

this whole entire week totally wrecked. literally. its a rare opportunity to get a week break before de start of a new job. i have planned so much things to do and i cun. i was down. i was sick. de entire package - sore throat, cough and flu.

i am not totally bedridden. i was still out but only for a couple of hours. that is all i can manage. i was tellin my friends what a loser i am. whole week of freedom and i was sick! gosh.

yet in a funny way, i am grateful that i am sick. if i didnt fall sick, i wouldnt be at home resting and cleaning. yup. i didnt know how and where i got de strength but i managed to do lotsa of cleaning. i trashed out tons of stuff. sort out stuff to be given to salvo. and its friggin therapeutic. hehehehehe.

there are still lotsa of cleaning up to be there. i wun be able to do it all at once. and i dun intend to do so. sometimes we try to do things as fast we can, we forgot to enjoy de process. we just want to get there. however its not de result that matters. whether i trash de stuff or pass it on to salvo, each piece bears a part of me. a bit of old memory. a part of me is movin on.

movin on is definitely not de easiest thing to do. it means letting go de past; dun dwell and move on. once de moving on get started, its actually pretty exciting. you know de whole sweaty palms, nervous wreck kinda exciting. maybe its de age thing. maybe its de meditation class. i really am lookin forward to de future. de unknown.

to my continuing brushing up my studio. to my re-decorating of my room. to my new job. to my teeny store. to life. to everything.